Uff.......

I am highly dissappointed.. I always feel like committing suicide... I am so pessimistic about my life that I don't want to live anymore.... I am not able to cope with the monotony of life... I am not rich enough to enjoy life... I have made some serious wrong decisions in life...which I am repenting....This intercaste marriage is the biggest hindrance in my life.. I am feeling suffoctaed... The responsibilities.. Different culture..different language...everything is so demanding... I am thinking too much but I know that I have made the wrong decision...

never Plan in Life...

I seriously Hate my life... don't know where it is heading towards... I know on ething that nener say never....The things you never thought of doing in life will definitely happen in your life...Destiny it is..what we say...and I am specially blessed with a super duper destiny with no happiness, excitement , no fondness, no hopes, no flourishing career....nothng left.. I don't have any hopes for naything in life.. Although I am blessed with a nice family, nice bf..but i don't want to follw the bong culture...don't want to live in delhi anymore....but see my destiny... i have to follow and live with bong people and culture my entire life.... live in delhi for how many years..don't know.... live away from my family....where is it heading.. really don't know.. I cannot even compalin to God... because.. I am losing my faith in him...He will not do any good to me... Although he has done a lot of good things to me... But he has gifted me with some unwanted  things as well.. What Am I supposed to do... I cannt take this life anymore... I cannot live this life anymore like this....