Dilemma.....

I sometmes fail to understand why I think so much...There are many a tiimes in life when people are confused and sometimes the reasons seem to be really weird......Same is going with me...

Sometimes ago I was boasting of my love story... I am still happy but somehwere down the line I  have started feeling that I should not settle down with this person. Not because I do not love that person but the difference in the culture. I am a typical Hindu from U.P. The boy is a bengali . Hence, the compatibility factor is going to be there for sure.I don't know how to cope up with this. I celbrate diwali and holi in a different manner and the bengalis do not celebrate it on such a lavish scale. I fail to understand where will it go and where am I supposed to stop my thinking. Am I thinking in the right direction or is it too much to think at this stage. I am in a deep dilemma... What am I supposed to do..God please help me...

Sorry....

I know you love me unconditionally

Your love has no boundaries

I am sorry for hurting you emotionally

Just let me know when I am a burden for you…

I will slip out of your life quietly

Even my silence will not be there around you

So that you live happy and peacefully

I know what is my place in your life

But you know what is real me….

I may not be your dream girl….

But I aint that bad…..

You made me realize how special I am for you…

But maybe I am not the best for you….

My heart cried every moment I stayed away from you…..

But I can’t be with you forcefully…..

Can’t describe you the pain I went through….

I will go away silently…..

So that you live happy and peacefully

Thanks for making my journey so lovely……..

I LOVE YOU

I love your smile, I love your style,
Without you my world is so nothing,
You tend to complete me, you are my everything,
I just want to give you myself, but I wonder am I still my self,
Your LOVE is no less
and hence I feel my world is Limitless!!!

I LOVE YOU......

A Sweet Love Story........

Love... I feel is the best thing to happen to any person..... the most pious feeling it is....love is the most lovely thing on this earth.....

There was a boy who was just leading his life in a normal routine way... No aims..no expectations....Just leading his present. He had a pat with any girls but never had any dedication or commitment towards those relations. He had 2 relations in the past and those were very bad experiences... Hence, never had been serious with any girl...In the present also he was going around with a girl. The relation existed just for the sake of it.... Then comes a girl in his life who turns out to be his best carppol member and his best friend.

 When the girl joined him initially, she was quite hesitant to be friendly with him...but it was the boy who behaved quite sweetly with her and made her comfortable...Then started the endless bonding between them...Even the girl was engaged in a relationship....But that relation was a massive failure.... But this failed relation proved to be connecting factor between them... The boy got attached to him to such an extent that he started to care about her after initial flirting... He used to listen to her and cared about her.....The boy used to listen to all her advises regarding his career..his personal life....they used to talk endlessly even on such issues which they would not have been able to discuss with anybody...  Gradually they became more and more closer and one day the boy realizes that he loves the girl a lot....He tried to convince the girl a lot. but the girl was very adamant that she was not going to have any relation after her bad stint in her previous relationship....


But destiny had something else for them....They both realized that they are more than frnds for each other.......
They confessed it to each other.. they were very  much in love....the best phase of their lives... boy used to write poems for her.. used to pamper her a lot...girl used to care for him equally... this carpooling ride was a love journey for them....the boy used to give her the flowers...and the girl used to surprise the guy with many gifts.....they used to have samosas, chaat, bhelpuri...icecreams to enjoy their love ride...they were the best couple....they were the entire world for each other....but this was not an easy journey.... they have something else in store for them..Then the girl was forced by her parents to enter the wedlock.... this was proving to be an end for them..... then suddenly the guy realizes that she is the one..and I just cannot let her go like this... He asks the girl "Will You Marry Me?" ...... This was a real surprise for that girl who was hardly expecting anything from this relationship.......

This love story is still going on hoping to have a happy ending.......

A failed Love

Love is such a beautiful and eternal feeling that one can never describe it unless and until he or she himself has experienced it. It is the purest thing on this earth whether it exists in a form of friendship, bro-sis love, parents- child love or a girl boy love or may be the love betwen God and his devotee.

I myself cannot describe the depth of these 4 letters although I am committed in a serious relationship with a guy for past 9 months.

I am writing this blog because I want to express my disgust on how a human being becomes so helpless sometimes that it sometimes forces me to wonder whether god exists or not. Today I came across one of the shocking revelation made by one of my batchmate. Yesterday one of my friend called him up to just say a casual hi to him. But as the telephonic converstion grew, she came to know that my batchmate has started doping from past 10 days. After a little pressure, he made this revealation. Alcohol has stopped affecting him long time back.
The reason for this whole deadly scenario was that he is deeply and madly in love with a girl who is not going to be hers coz their families are against their relation. If  such is the state of my batchmate, I fear what the girl might be going through coz her parents have decided to get her married to a guy of their own caste.

Now the question arises, whether this girl be ever able to give 100 % to that other guy with whom her parents wants her to get married or will she ever be able to come out of this relation. Moreover, I am really afraid for my batchmate in case he takes a drugs overdose or if any of his organs fail or may be he turns up a psycho and god forbid he ever commits suicide.

Can parents take responsibility of the tough conditions their children are going through. I know they cannot be blamed but again the question arises, IS FALLING IN LOVE A HEINOUS CRIME?
Y dun parents come out of their age old orthodox beliefs......When their eyes will opens when these guys will do something to themselves someday.are they waiting for this day.....

God do u exist anywhere........Plz help them or eradicate this LOVE from this earth ............

A thoughtful Mind

This is my first blog. I have never been into writing but sometimes there should be a space for every person to talk to oneself. So here I am.

I sometimes fail to understand these different shades of life.  Sometimes I do think that I am taking life too seriously or is it the way one should lead his or her life. Life is actually so difficult or we make it so.

I used to be normal city girl. As I grew up, I was pressurized by my parents to be a topper n school, then I was being screwed to beat different competitions. Later at this stage, again I am being pressurized for a big event Marriage.

I may be too young to draw conclusions but from from my own experience, I have started believing firmly that it is the people around you who do every possible thing to make your life hell.

May be I am thinking too much but can't help it out, its a human tendency.